Self-Portrait with Fire Ants, by Pascale Petit

Self-Portrait with Fire Ants

From The Zoo Father To visit you Father, I wear a mask of fire ants.
When I sit waiting for you to explain   why you abandoned me when I was eight
they file in, their red bodies   massing around my eyes, stinging my pupils white
until I’ m blind. Then they attack my mouth.   I try to lick them but they climb down my gullet
until an entire swarm stings my stomach,   while you must become a giant anteater,
push your long sticky tongue down my throat,   as you once did to my baby brother,
French-kissing him while he pretended to sleep.   I can’ t remember what you did to me, but the ants know.

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Pascale Petit