Do you believe in alternate worlds,
in other dimensions?
I do
I'm there I am a ghost
walking around unseen
watching others,
not a part of their world,
they, not a part of mine I was in their world once.
I think I remember. Soccer games
going to work
shopping
not thinking about tomorrow.
All surreal now
so surreal. Transported to a world
of people dressed in white
of machines
and a million needles piercing me
the needles seem to never stop.
Days filled with medicine
and more medicine
Do I take this one now?
God, I forget what I took. Transported to a world of days without sleep
and days without waking.
A world of pain
A world where you let them
fill you with poisons
then ask them to do it again. Everything that mattered before,
doesn't. God, how I long to go to the mall
carefree
like these people walking around me,
to worry about next summer's vacation
as though next summer is assured.
I long to be free
I long to be normal
But there is nothing normal
in the world of cancer.